Anonymous said: In your post about traveling & your family, you refer to your mother as your "birth mother" and I was just wondering why? Is it because she died when you were young and you never really knew her as anything other than your birth mom? Or was there some sort of early estrangement that leads you to refer to her in a semi detached manner? I think both the woman that birthed you and the fearless, independant woman you grew up with can be your mom! Unless, you feel otehrwise! Just curious (and nosy).
Good question. That’s what we’ve always called her. I was only two and a half when she died, so while she was my everything, my primary caretaker, and by all accounts, a superb and doting mom — I’ve never known her. I would feel weird calling her simply ‘my mom’ — in fact, I always did. (When I was around five I would say, “I don’t have a mom,” and Dad would have to remind me, “You do, but she died.”)
And as for the woman my dad married — I call her ‘my mom’ as shorthand with people I don’t know well but I have always called her Shelley within my family and friends. It would feel weird to call her Mom to her face. Really weird.
Here’s the thing though. She’s IS my mom. Legally — as well as in every other way except the biological (though people occasionally say we look alike, which is amusing). She adopted me when I was 15 (though they married when I was 9 I didn’t ‘let her’ adopt me until then — it was too much, I guess, and I needed to mature until I could get to that point of acceptance).
When you are adopted, you get a brand-new Certificate of Live Birth. It makes no mention of adoption. It says that Shelley was my mother at the time of my birth (living it up in Santa Barbara while I was gettin’ born in Germany, a miracle of science!). Denise is not mentioned. (Strange, right?)
I’m sure that other people would feel comfortable calling Shelley Mom to her face, or having ‘two moms,’ one dead, one living, but I just don’t. ‘Birth-mom,’ to me, is accurate and respectful to both women. But perhaps it is a form of detachment. I suppose they’re not mutually exclusive.
PS: It’s worth noting that my dad calls Shelley “your mother/mom” to me, and that I usually call her mom when referring to her with my sister. That wasn’t always the case, though. I remember when she was little she once asked why I called her Shelley. Where to begin, sweet Gena…?
cossmiclovee said: Hi! I've been following you for a while and am so intrigued with how many places it seems you've visited. Where have you been? Do you travel for work? What was your favorite place? Sorry for the million questions, I'm going to grad school and would love to move after graduation, but don't know where I'd want to live. I'm from NJ and have traveled a lot, but have not lived anywhere besides NJ & London for 6 months..
Hello! You’re so sweet to ask. Let’s see … I’ve been to a lot of places (but never enough). There was a long time, more than a decade, that I didn’t stay in the same city for more than two consecutive years — and then I discovered New York, and here I have stayed since October 2006. It satisfies my wanderlust, I suppose.
So, I was born in Darmstadt, Germany, because my self-proclaimed “dot-communist” dad was (ironically?) working as a computer programmer for The Stars & Stripes, the Army’s newspaper. Then we moved back to his hometown, St. Paul. A few years after my birth-mom died, he went down to Managua to do some computer programming for the Sandinistas (unironically, this time) and on the tarmac, saw a gorgeous, fearless, independent lady that he determined to make his wife and mother of his child. But she was determined to continue being a gorgeous, fearless, independent, single lady for as long as she pleased, so he had to write long love letters and wait patiently. He brought me down to Managua the next time he went and while the local news made it sound pretty neat (it WAS pretty neat), I was a bit of a terror, so I didn’t help matters in wooing her.
He didn’t give up, though, and even moved us to San Francisco to complete the courtship. It worked.
Then he knocked her up and we all moved back to St. Paul, where his company was and most of his family was and where it just made sense to be.
…except the fact that it was Minnesota, and that gorgeous, fearless, independent lady wasn’t into THAT idea.
We won her over.
Wow, long story long, right?
When I was a kid and teenager, we went back down to Nicaragua a number of times. On spring breaks, my parents led me to the jungles of Guatemala and the mountains of Chiapas (and all I wanted was something ‘normal,’ like Acapulco). In middle school I spent a month studying in Vitoria, Spain. Then my whole family went to Barcelona and Tuscany to visit my birth-mom’s family (I must return like NOW). When I was 15, I went back to the little town my parents were living in when I was born, Rheinheim, and went to school there for seven months.
Then I moved to New Orleans for college, did my JYA in Dublin, and returned to Dublin for my Masters. I got to travel around Europe a lot — soaked up the sun in Portugal, sipped crisp white wine in Austria, did mushrooms at the Van Gogh museum in Amsterdam, that kind of thing — and once my then-boyfriend won a trip for two to Malaysia on a TV quiz show. That was super-cool. (I mean who actually wins that kind of thing? The kind of guy we’ll never stop missing, that’s who.)
But back to this never-ending story. As I was finishing my dissertation, Katrina hit, and I returned to Nola for eight months to join the rebuilding effort.
Finally, after a summer stopover back at home (during which my little sister made all kinds of fun of me for turning 25 in a camper at the wedding of a family friend, whoohoo, don’t go crazy now), I arrived in New York.
Since then I have been lucky enough to regularly travel around the country (especially California and Chicago) and to France and Dublin to see friends and family. (Me and my girls, we love to get together.) I’ve tagged along with my boyfriend to Colombia twice while he was developing cocktail programs for two bars. I don’t travel all that much for work — I’ve only been to Chicago for Greenbuild and glamorous Charlotte, North Carolina, for meetings. Sexy timez.
I see from your blog that you’re 22 and I’m going to say the cliched thing here: travel while you’re young. Don’t max out your credit card to do it … well, maybe max it out once. It’s worth it.
As for where to live after graduation, the door to New York is always open, but go wherever your heart leads, just so long as you have a few friends there (imho). You’ll find a job once you get there. You just will.
Happy trails, my dear! xx